HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET WAYNE!! Today is Wayne's 34th birthday! I am going to be making it a point to make a big deal out of his birthdays from now on. This is why...When I met Wayne he was 26 and I was 19. To some people they might think that is a big age difference, but to anyone that knows him he doesn't act or look his age. That didn't matter though, Wayne HATED his age. Of course, I would be a brat and always tease him about it. He hated it when I would tell people how old he was. He loved to have people guess his age, which always was much younger than he was, and then he would just say that they were right. Anyway, I am sure that Wayne was so grateful to Heavenly Father for keeping him at his young age of 33 years old. Well to his disappointment I am not letting him stay 33. He will get old just like me. So today he is now 34....sorry honey! I just can't get old without you! I am making your favorite....cheescake. Brody said he will blow out the candles for you!

Wayne and I met on a blind date. His sister Amberly set us up. My parents had moved to Riverton will I was going to school up at Utah State. So when I came home for the summer I got to know our new next door neighbor, Amber. Wayne lived with her and her family. Wayne and I never met before our first date because like me, he was never home. I didn't like the idea of my parents moving me away from all of my friends in Kearns, so I was rarely home. He too was out with his friends a lot or riding his motorcycle. When Amber told me about Wayne she said he was very shy and I would end up doing most of the talking. Well, that was not how it was at all. He talked and talked and talked. We were so comfortable with each other and it was as if we had know each other for years.....which in reality we had. Wayne always told me "the reason we were so comfortable and didn't take long to get to know each other was because we have been together since the pre-existence. I totally agree. We were engaged in October and married on May 10, 2003 in the Mount Timpanogos Temple for time and all eternity. It was one of the most amazing days of my life!!

We were so blessed to have our busy Brody born on August 7, 2005. Wayne is an amazing father. His relationship with Brody was always so important. He would do anything he wanted. Even if that meant that it was going to make me mad. Brody always new he could get his way with his dad. Wayne loved to take Brody on 4 wheeler rides. He was just as much of a kid as Brody. If they could find something to climb then they were as happy as could be. Brody loved to get in the bobcat or the tractor with his dad too. He thinks he is a professional at it now too, just like his dad. Wayne loved to take Brody for bike rides. They would find any hill to climb on their bikes too. Wayne was always so patient with Brody and is the best dad in the world. He is constantly helping to guide me in the right direction in raising our son. He helps me to have patience when I am having a mean moment with Brody. He will always be there to help me raise Brody.

Words can not express the love I have for him. I am so honored to have an amazing husband that is doing the Lord's work. He is the perfect person for me. He was always so sweet to me. He never wanted me to be unhappy. He would do anything to help me in any way he could. Even if it meant cleaning the house or going to help someone I asked him too. He always knew how to make me laugh and knew just what to say when I was sad. I miss that! I know he loves me and will for eternity. I will love him for eternity and can't wait until the day I am reunited with him. It is definately not easy though. I am so grateful to have the love and support of our Heavenly Father and our Savior Jesus Christ. Without it I would not be strong enough to endure to the end. In a few days it will be 5 months since Wayne passed away. The time has flown by so quickly for me. I am so grateful for that. It makes it seem a little easier to endure.

I love you Wayne and I can't wait to be reunited with you in your loving arms. I know that the moment I see you I will be running to greet you! I am so excited to spend eternity with you and our beautiful son. I am so proud of you! I will love you for eternity!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY.....THE BIG 34!!!!

It has been over four months since my dear sweet Wayne passed away. I can't believe that time has flown by so quickly. These last few months have been full of many experiences. Both my father in law and my dad had bypass surgery on their hearts. They are both doing great and recovering well. I am so grateful that they were able to find out what was wrong with them before something worse happened. I also broke my arm falling on the ice. Of course when Brody tells the story of me breaking my arm this is his version..."my mom was coming down the stairs at my grandma's and she was carrying a piece of cake. She slipped and fell and she sat in the cake." I am not sure whether I landed in the cake or if I sat back into it...either way I did sit in the cake. I didn't know it and was sure surprised when I got up to have my father in law and Dusty give me a blessing. It was a good laugh though!! I was sure it wasn't broke so after 5 days I decided I better know for sure. Sure enough it was. Lucky for me it was just a hairline fracture so I am just wearing a brace. Even though my life has been full of many experiences I am so grateful for them.
I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father that blesses me everyday. That gives me strength that is beyond my own capabilities. I can't imagine going through this life without his constant guidance and love. Our Savior has suffered every pain, sorrow, and grief that we have. He knows everything we have gone through and every will go through. I am so grateful for his eternal sacrifice that makes it possible for us to become perfect through him. I love him so much.
I am so blessed to have amazing family and friends that give me constant love and support. I am grateful for my active son that makes me go, go, go all day. It is so nice to be so busy. It keeps me going. He is the light of mine and Wayne's life. He is so much like his dad and I am grateful for that. I am grateful to have the sweet reminders.
I love my sweet Wayne more and more each day. I know that is hard to imagine, not having him physically with me anymore, but it is so true. I am so honored to have such an amazing husband that is faithfully serving our Heavenly Father and our brother Jesus Christ.
Thank you for all of your constant love and support!! We love you!!

SNOW DAY

Beth and Dusty invited Brody and I to go "Rabbit Hunting" with them a few weeks ago. Brody is all for doing anything that involves going with Kevin and Ty somewhere. We mostly spent the day playing in the snow. It was very fun and Brody loved it. Brody thinks that since Kevin is a 6 foot 12 year old that he should also be his horse to ride on. Kevin and Ty are so good to Brody and he just adores them. Wayne wasn't a big hunter and neither am I. Brody hasn't ever had the desire either. He has now changed his mind and thinks he is a HUNTER now. He wants to go and shoot a deer. He is very excited to go hunting with his Uncle Dusty and cousin Kevin and Ty this year. Kevin and Brody decided to try sledding down a hill while Ty and Dusty were looking around for something to shoot. Beth and I had a great time watching them. Beth and Dusty are an amazing brother and sister to me. They are continually doing everything for Brody and I. We love them very much.

Brody and Kevin playing in the snow

THE HOLIDAYS

Brody and I had a great Christmas! We were blessed by so many people. We loved putting Wayne's Christmas tree up on his grave. We decorated it with ornaments that show his personality. Brody painted some blocks to put on his dad's grave with his Aunt Megan. We of course had to take him his Christmas presents. I had bought him and Brody matching toy motorcycles. I always had to buy them each one because Wayne is as big of a kid as Brody. We took him his motorcycle and of course a Mountain Dew. Brody had to drink some of it first though. He said his dad could have the rest. Brody loves to make special things for his dad that we can put on his grave.

We spent Christmas Eve at Beth and Dusty's house. Brody just loved waking up Christmas morning with Kevin and Ty. He is their little shadow. Wayne and I had bought almost all of Brody's Christmas before he passed away. Wayne had to get him a GIGANTIC remote control 4 wheeler. I had to inform him it wasn't for him and that he couldn't do any modifing to it because it was Brody's. Brody loved opening it Christmas morning and loved that it was from his dad. I know Wayne was there with us that morning just wishing he could be driving it around in the snow too.

We spent New Year's at Grandma and Grandpa Whittle's. We had a great time playing with Conner, Kaylee, and Aydrian. Brody loves to go up to my parents because he is so spoiled. He loves to talk my dad into taking him to McDonalds, even if dinner has already been fixed. He still gets his way....his chicken nuggets, fries, and don't forget the annoying toy.

The holdiays were not quite the same without my sweet Wayne, but I know he is not far from us. I continually feel his sweet spirit with me. I am so blessed to go to the temple often to feel his presence there with me. He has been my eternal companion since the pre-existence. I am so honored he chose me to spend eternity with. I can't wait to spend eternity with him and our beautiful son. I know he is having an amazing influence in the spirit world and that he is serving the mission he always wanted to. He will always be our "daddy angel" watching over us.

Thank you to all of you for you constant love and support. We love all of you and are so honored to have all of you in our lives.

We are a Happy Family!!

I am so blessed to have an amazing husband waiting for me on the other side of the veil. I am so excited for the day I can be reunited with him for eternity and we can be an eternal family. I am so grateful to have an amazing little boy to keep me going. He is mostly Wayne, and I am so blessed to have him to remind me of Wayne everyday! I am so blessed to have amazing family and friends. Thank you to all of you!

It has been exactly one month today since my dear sweet Wayne passed away. I am so blessed to have my sweet Brody to still be with me. I don't know how I would survive any of this without the knowledge I have of the plan of salvation. I am so grateful for my savior Jesus Christ that has made it possible to have eternal life and to have the opportunity to be eternal families. I am so grateful to be sealed to Wayne and Brody for eternity. I am so blessed to have so many family and friends that love and support me. I am so grateful for all of the prayers, thoughts, and many more things everyone has done for us. Thank you to all of you for your constant love and concern. We love you all!