LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS EASY, BUT IT IS WORTH IT!!

It has now been six months since my sweet Wayne passed away. The time has flown by so quickly for me. I am so grateful to a loving Heavenly Father that has made it easier by speeding up time for me. I am so grateful for the eternal perspective that Heavenly Father has blessed me with these months. I have contemplated on why my sweet husband would be called home to our loving Father in Heaven at such a young age. This is what I have been blessed to acknowledge.
I know that the second coming of our Savior Jesus Christ is sooner than we realize sometimes. Can you imagine how many spirits reside in the spirit world? I can't. It is incomprehensible to me. I know that Heavenly Father has so much work to complete in the spirit world. He needs so many faithful and strong soldiers to teach his children. A lot of the time we think of missionary work in this life, but don't acknowledge how much there is in the spirit world also. I know for me, if I were to leave this mortal stage of life without the gospel I would like to be taught by someone who understood me.
I would want to be taught the gospel by someone who understood how it feels to live today. To face the challenges of this day and age. I am sure that there are many faithful spirits from other time periods of the world that have a great influence in the spirit world, but they might not understand how it feels to have the challenges of life today. That is why our Heavenly Father needs these amazing soldiers to help him. I know that Wayne is assisting in bringing many souls unto Christ. I am so honored that he was willing to make such an amazing sacrfice to assist in bringing eternal salvation to his brothers and sisters in the spirit world.
Only our Heavenly Father knows when we are finished with this mortal life. For some life is short, for others more than a hundred years. Heavenly Father knows when someone has completed all that they can in mortality and is ready for the next stage of our eternal progression. It doesn't mean that it is always fair, but if it was we wouldn't be here on earth. We would have chosen to follow Satan in being forced to make right choices, thus resulting in not coming to earth and receiving a body.
Satan is very cunning and is the father of all lies. He will do anything to destroy everyone he can, especially families. He will do anything to make sure that we don't become eternal families. He loves to have people be miserable just like himself. He loves to make people think they are of no worth and that there is no way back.
We are all children of a loving Heavenly Father who presented a plan for all of his children to return home to him someday. He loves us. We are his children. Can you imagine the love he has for you and for me? For all of us. It is unimaginable! Families are the center of everything. At times we might not always get along with members of our families or may have our differences, but I truly believe that we chose our families in the pre-existence. That we loved each other so much and that we wanted to spend eternity together. That doesn't mean that we all would be perfect and not make mistakes. I know that as we strive to make our families stronger Satan will be working harder to tear us apart. He will do anything to turn families against each other. None of us are perfect. I know that I am definately not. Sometimes our family may offend us or hurt our feelings and that is when we should truly apply the atonement to our lives and forgive.
Forgiveness is not easy. It is one of the hardest things we face in mortality. It is a continual process. I know that if we can learn to forgive others and ourselves of our imperfections that we will be able to truly come unto Christ.
I am so greatful for a loving Father in Heaven who watches over me and for my eternal companion that is my guardian angel. He is always trying to help me to have patience with our amazing little boy. I am grateful to have Brody. He keeps me strong and reminds me so much of his daddy. I love Wayne with all of my heart and am so honored to have such an amazing man to help me and our son achieve exaltation.
Thank you for all of your continual support and love. I don't know how I would survive this mortal existence without all of you!! We love you all!!!